Octobering

I think about this blog all the time...and how nostalgic it is for me. This blog is like an old tree house in your parent's back yard, or the photo album you and your friends took from ages 8 to 14. Random years, I know. But there's something about this blog that I love--I feel so comfortable coming back here. It's almost as if I've never let go. Like I've never moved on. But I have..and the journey has been quite interesting.

Over the past 2+ months, almost 3, I've done a lot of growing. I think I stated in a previous blog entry that I was in a new relationship with a guy named Mike. Mike and I are doing wonderfully and I keep falling more and more in love with him each day. Coming from a heartbreak that I never thought would heal to being with someone who makes me see past that...it's incredible. But I do not give all credit to Mike for helping me overcome that heartbreak. No, I did the majority of it on my own. I finally threw in the towel.

Vincent and I no longer speak. I went from talking to this person, though we were broken up, constantly, trying to mend a friendship...to just...nothing.

And my favorite thing about that is...it's OKAY! My world has not ended; in fact, life seems like it's just beginning. It's my favorite season of the year and I'll be damned if I don't make the best of it. Things have been changing every moment it seems and it feels great. It finally feels like, in a really long time, I'm in a good place in my life. And though I don't have much tangible, I have a lot of room in my heart for those and things that do matter. 

I miss you, dear blog. All those posts...the tears I've cried from writing here--it's all been worth it. Every heartbreak. Every funny memory. It's all me and I'm so happy to be me.