The title of this blog is a Jack Johnson. I've had this song stuck in my head all day. This actually fits into my feelings right now.
"You're wrecking your mind by killing the thought that kills you."
I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I went to CYC today which was Committed Young Christians. It's the second meeting and I already love it. Even though I'm not super religious, I still love the people in it and how fun it is. The Bible-talks or whatever you want to call it are very intriguing. They make me think, which is wonderful. I've decided to abstain from doing drugs or drinking. Even though I don't drink, really, at all, it's still something I want to uphold. I don't know--this club has got me thinking about everything.
Even my relationship with Vincent. Gah, I love Vincent SO much. It's a wonderful feeling. But, is it normal that I have to keep reminding myself that I do? Or does the feeling of love just sit there because it's so apparent? I don't know. I'm so confused. I want to be with Vincent and I love talking to him, but these past two days or so things have been just....just. Nothing totally special. I haven't lost feelings for him. I just don't know what I want with myself anymore.
Maybe it's because I'm tired and I can't focus. I don't know. Vincent is the most amazing guy I've ever known--period. He makes me feel unbelievably happy. He is the source of my sunshine. He sends me rays of light from California.
Actually, I feel better now. I just needed some musical uplifting. I've been listening to 80s music.
JENNY I GOT YOUR NUMBER! 867-5309
"You're wrecking your mind by killing the thought that kills you."
I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I went to CYC today which was Committed Young Christians. It's the second meeting and I already love it. Even though I'm not super religious, I still love the people in it and how fun it is. The Bible-talks or whatever you want to call it are very intriguing. They make me think, which is wonderful. I've decided to abstain from doing drugs or drinking. Even though I don't drink, really, at all, it's still something I want to uphold. I don't know--this club has got me thinking about everything.
Even my relationship with Vincent. Gah, I love Vincent SO much. It's a wonderful feeling. But, is it normal that I have to keep reminding myself that I do? Or does the feeling of love just sit there because it's so apparent? I don't know. I'm so confused. I want to be with Vincent and I love talking to him, but these past two days or so things have been just....just. Nothing totally special. I haven't lost feelings for him. I just don't know what I want with myself anymore.
Maybe it's because I'm tired and I can't focus. I don't know. Vincent is the most amazing guy I've ever known--period. He makes me feel unbelievably happy. He is the source of my sunshine. He sends me rays of light from California.
Actually, I feel better now. I just needed some musical uplifting. I've been listening to 80s music.
JENNY I GOT YOUR NUMBER! 867-5309
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