Oh baby those are such great shoes!

I've been going through some of my old blogs and I have got to say that I truly, truly miss who I used to be. At this moment, I have no idea who I am anymore. My blogging has changed. I used to write so passionately and now it seems like I've grown too fond of periods. I want to blame it on the fact that I don't have my Macbook, but a writer doesn't stop writing if they don't have a computer. I am a writer and that's all that I know how to be. I was watching the movie "Julie & Julia" with my mom earlier and Julie's character didn't know what she wanted in life and didn't know what she was good at except cooking. I don't think I'm good at anything except writing. Well, I feel that I am a decent writer. I think my writing fluctuates depending on what I'm writing about.

Over a year ago when I was in that horrific love-spell with Stephen my writing was great. Sure, I was sad every day, but the writing was good. I cranked out some good poems, blogged up to three times a day and I enjoyed it. Now, I'm sad, heartbroken again and I can't fuse together a perfect sentence. I love to write. I always will, I hope. Is it wrong that I do dream about being the cat-lady who blogs endlessly in her quiet apartment in the city? I don't want children or a husband, I just want cats and a fucking Macbook.


Well, this was my first real blog post in awhile and it sure feels good. Maybe I'll blog later again if I feel inspired by something. Something is bound to happen, right? Hell, this is my life we're reading!