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I think if we're going to be together, we will be. I have to keep believing that. That's all I need to think. Last night I told Vincent about Holly's troubles deciding what to do about moving on with her life with or even without Pedro. They've been together for over 3 years and with both of them graduating, and living in separate states, and him not having a license, job, or car, it's going to be even more difficult for them to date. Vincent and I haven't even dated a whole year yet. It's coming up, but still. I was telling Vincent about all of that when he said "3 years, I'd get so bored. After two, it's done." Now, he didn't exactly say that if he was dating me for 3 years he would be bored, more like in general. But we are dating so I guess it should apply to me. No? I want to be with Vincent for as long as I can. I love him very much and I couldn't ever get bored of him. He's so incredibly sweet and loving. He makes me laugh. He really does mean so much to me, and to think that I would become boring after 3 years...it scares me. What if I become boring within the next few months? The next year? What then? I don't want to lose Vincent, but I can't control that I guess. He says that he hates being tied down, and that he needs his freedom. I give him all the freedom I can without losing him completely. I don't tell him he needs to stay home and talk to me all the time. I always encourage him to go have fun with his friends. And as much as I wanted him to come here for College, I'm happy that he got into the school of his choice rather than mine. Honestly, I just want him happy. If he's happy with me, awesome. If he needs to go, well, I'll just have to let him. But not without a fight. I wouldn't let him go too easy.

It makes me very sad to think that some day we might drift apart. It's one of the scariest things I think about. Not talking to him every day. Not being able to tell him I love him. Getting rid of the pictures. No text messages. I don't want him to disappear. But as much as I tell myself that even if we did drift apart and that he wouldn't just disappear, I know in time he most likely would. Every relationship is like that. And I have a very hard time being able to be friends with my exs. I really do want Vincent happy, believe me when I say that, readers, but...I can't watch it be with someone else. That would hurt me too much.