"Rachel."
"Yes, baby?"
"You're beautiful."
I've heard you say this dozens of times before, but this time, this moment is different. The way you said it was like it was your defining moment and the only words you could possibly tell are the words that I must live by. "You're beautiful" seems like something good to live by.
It's almost 2 in the morning and I really should be sleeping. Normally, I would be, but when I get the blogging kick, I must blog. I need to and I know that if I didn't blog I would wake up very unsatisfied with myself. I always feel like if I don't blog when I know I should I'm cheating myself out of words that can possibly never be found again.
This past weekend with you was a hurdle that we overcame. Yesterday was our, rather my, emotional day. I've made my apologies and I can tell you that everything isn't your fault. Things are better. Today was better, even though we got semi-emotional in tonight's conversation.
I've asked you numerous times before if you think that we'll be together for a long time and you've always said yes, that you believe so. When I asked you this tonight you asked, "do you want my honest opinion, or?" No good can come from that. You told me that you have zero expectations and think it's awesome if we get through tomorrow. Shit, what a blow. Actually, not so much a blow--more like a "oh, hey, that's new." I like your honest opinion. Sometimes it's bette to hear that than "yes, we're going to be together forever and blah blab blah."
Vincent Charles Pelaske is the name of the guy I date. It's he name of the guy I love and the name of the person I want to spend many days with. Forever is the scariest word to lovers. Am I saying I want to spend the rest of my life with Vincent? Well, I'm not there yet. Do I feel we have potential? Extremely. Would I choose him over any other guy? Absolutely. Will it always be this way? I sure hope so.
Give me a kiss, a kiss goodnight and I'll sing you
songs that awaken your ears and your heart.
I want to be the girl who changes your thoughts
and your opinions.
You are stubborn, whether or not you agree to it or not.
"Yes, baby?"
"You're beautiful."
I've heard you say this dozens of times before, but this time, this moment is different. The way you said it was like it was your defining moment and the only words you could possibly tell are the words that I must live by. "You're beautiful" seems like something good to live by.
It's almost 2 in the morning and I really should be sleeping. Normally, I would be, but when I get the blogging kick, I must blog. I need to and I know that if I didn't blog I would wake up very unsatisfied with myself. I always feel like if I don't blog when I know I should I'm cheating myself out of words that can possibly never be found again.
This past weekend with you was a hurdle that we overcame. Yesterday was our, rather my, emotional day. I've made my apologies and I can tell you that everything isn't your fault. Things are better. Today was better, even though we got semi-emotional in tonight's conversation.
I've asked you numerous times before if you think that we'll be together for a long time and you've always said yes, that you believe so. When I asked you this tonight you asked, "do you want my honest opinion, or?" No good can come from that. You told me that you have zero expectations and think it's awesome if we get through tomorrow. Shit, what a blow. Actually, not so much a blow--more like a "oh, hey, that's new." I like your honest opinion. Sometimes it's bette to hear that than "yes, we're going to be together forever and blah blab blah."
Vincent Charles Pelaske is the name of the guy I date. It's he name of the guy I love and the name of the person I want to spend many days with. Forever is the scariest word to lovers. Am I saying I want to spend the rest of my life with Vincent? Well, I'm not there yet. Do I feel we have potential? Extremely. Would I choose him over any other guy? Absolutely. Will it always be this way? I sure hope so.
Give me a kiss, a kiss goodnight and I'll sing you
songs that awaken your ears and your heart.
I want to be the girl who changes your thoughts
and your opinions.
You are stubborn, whether or not you agree to it or not.
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