I wouldn't promise you anything but my love. And I cannot, nor will not, deceive you. I am putting an end to who I used to be and concentrating on being the best love for you.
We texted a little bit while both of us were in school yesterday. You seemed sort of distant. I knew something was wrong, but didn't think too much of it. You came home depressed, annoyed, and decided to go for a run. I wish I could be one of those people who run to get rid of their problems. They're not running from them, but running so they disperse into air, I guess. You said you loved me and took a really short run, as a matter of fact. You weren't gone long before we talked again.
The problem was you had to deal with an ex girlfriend and a girl who rejected you all day. I'm sorry you had to. But, I'm also glad that I was able to make you feel better. I do love you and I wouldn't let go of you. You really are all I want. And when I want something, I MUST have it. Maybe that's why I pressure you so much to be with me again..or have that title. We are together. We are in love with each other, but we are not boyfriend and girlfriend. I still don't know why that title scares you. It makes me sick to my stomach sometimes when I think of all we say, do, feel but there's no source to back it up.
It'd be so much easier to call you my boyfriend. Do you know how hard it is to talk about you to my friends and when they ask who you are I have to say "he's my sorta, not really, kinda boyfriend" ? It hurts. You're not hurting me though. You love me more than anyone ever has...and that's all that matters. I just want to be your girlfriend! Ha, it's okay.
Someday, hopefully.
We texted a little bit while both of us were in school yesterday. You seemed sort of distant. I knew something was wrong, but didn't think too much of it. You came home depressed, annoyed, and decided to go for a run. I wish I could be one of those people who run to get rid of their problems. They're not running from them, but running so they disperse into air, I guess. You said you loved me and took a really short run, as a matter of fact. You weren't gone long before we talked again.
The problem was you had to deal with an ex girlfriend and a girl who rejected you all day. I'm sorry you had to. But, I'm also glad that I was able to make you feel better. I do love you and I wouldn't let go of you. You really are all I want. And when I want something, I MUST have it. Maybe that's why I pressure you so much to be with me again..or have that title. We are together. We are in love with each other, but we are not boyfriend and girlfriend. I still don't know why that title scares you. It makes me sick to my stomach sometimes when I think of all we say, do, feel but there's no source to back it up.
It'd be so much easier to call you my boyfriend. Do you know how hard it is to talk about you to my friends and when they ask who you are I have to say "he's my sorta, not really, kinda boyfriend" ? It hurts. You're not hurting me though. You love me more than anyone ever has...and that's all that matters. I just want to be your girlfriend! Ha, it's okay.
Someday, hopefully.
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